Day 5 - 2 -- Anxiety Returns?

The first day back in the office after the holiday break was spent running back and forth -- being more than a little discombobulated. I managed to get things ready for the one lecture tomorrow and one of those on Thursday. Later I spent time at home getting other things ready for Thursday classes. The office was cold today - colder than usual. I may have to call to demand a space heater if things remain the same tomorrow.  <sigh> The external temperature is to be colder tomorrow, too, which will likely add to the indoor discomfort. I had 4 layers on today and still sat and shivered. Silliness for a building with a new heat sensing system that obviously doesn't do the job.

I woke much earlier than the alarm today and was awake much later than when the lights went out last night. That is a clear sign of the "Sunday" anxiety. It fell on a Monday due to the holiday, but it was the same anxious feeling -- like waiting for the other shoe to drop or running from whatever is hanging over my left shoulder <smile>. Given that a whole new term begins tomorrow, the feeling of not being ready creates the stomach churning feelings. I am ready for tomorrow and now for the rest of the week. I have things organized to add new slides and revise others needed for the end of next week. So, I'm not too far behind on that, but knowing that there are several admin tasks to tackle soon means less time for course organization. This sort of thinking can bring on the panicky feelings. With time, I'll get the groove back. In the meantime, remaining as calm as possible can help. When frenetic feelings approach, I should take a time out to explore what I feel in my heart not just the emotional part of the head -- in that dinosaur brain area.

A song lyric that ran through my head later today seemed perfect to share here tonight. The main message is what I keep saying to myself (and to others). The voice delivers these words with amazing smoothness. Enjoy!

Don't you worry 'bout a thing -- John Legend