Day 6 - 151 -- Thoughts of Home

Today was filled with mundane tasks. The dreaded list for the day has only one item left to push to tomorrow. Not bad when many unexpected things popped up at the top of my list of their own accord. <smile> For the last day of May temperatures were below seasonal and didn't get much past single digits Celsius. That made working away indoors feel pleasant.

One addition to the list involved a phone conversation with someone from Saskatchewan -- the place that I feel in my heart as home. This event led to memories of walking along the stone fronted buildings of my home town with their exquisite masonry designs. It is rare for a prairie town since most were wooden buildings, so no longer exist; yet those in Moose Jaw do. Many thoughts of friends, colleagues, mentors and family rushed in while I was cooking supper. All brought smiles. I do miss it often.

A Canadian troubadour wrote and sang a song that states much of what I feel. It is a tribute to the major river that runs through the province. I love the deep resonant voice. It adds much to the wistfulness of the lyrics. Enjoy!

Roll On Saskatchewan -- Stompin' Tom Conners

Day 6 - 150 -- Vulnerable

Today I was chatting with someone about emotions, which led to an exploration of vulnerability. Heavy topic, but very enlightening. Something we'd read noted that without vulnerability a person can't hold all the threads of the tensions we encounter in life -- the opposites and paradoxes. Also, being vulnerable allows others to see the passion we have for various aspects of life -- personal and at work. Yet it seems that most adults have learned to fear being vulnerable. How odd. Did we learn that as a child when someone told us that showing fear, excitement or frustration was silly or just not valued? Did we learn it as adults when we showed some emotion and were chided as being weak or worse yet an emotional person -- often this latter is a gendered statement. However we learned it, how do we unlearn it?  Any reading I've done distills this down to being brave or feeling comfortable with the discomfort that vulnerability brings with it.

This made me realize that I've encouraged others to be open with emotions and created spaces for people to be brave and just feel as they speak. That took some effort on my part, to feel OK with someone else's vulnerability. Reflecting showed me that I'd moved into a vulnerable place to express my thoughts or concerns and while most times this worked well, there were times when I was immediately shut down by a listener. That is where the trust comes forward -- without trust, vulnerability won't work well. Hmm -- that went deeper today than I'd expected.

There is a song lyric that somewhat fits the thoughts of the day. I hear aspects of vulnerability, trust and bravery in the lyrics.

All About Soul -- Billy Joel

Day 6 - 149 -- Never ending List

I made a list of all the little things that need to be done by next week in preparation for the presentations. It is longer than expected -- filled with oodles of things that take 5-10 minutes each. So, it is doable, just daunting that there should be so many bitty details to manage. <smile> I went for a walk today to an appointment, had a great phone chat with a colleague and ended the day with a lovely dinner with friends. I think I needed each item as a way to decompress.

I'm not sure why I was so surprised at the number of tiny tasks necessary to complete two major projects <grin>. I knew I had to make a list to be sure they were all addressed in time. Yes, one of those infamous 'to do' lists. I find it less stressful to put it onto paper and then my mind isn't constantly repeating the list in my head. Once on the list, I can refer to that and relax my mind knowing that the 'memory' parts can relax now -- and not keep me awake at night <smile>. 

A song was mentioned in a conversation with a friend. It is one I hadn't thought of for some time, yet it fit the overflowing list made today and theme of change this blog deals with often. I've shared the original version, since it is the wonderful singer-songwriter whose voice I hear with this one, though there are many wonderful covers out there. Enjoy!

Landslide -- Fleetwood Mac

Day 6 - 148 -- Experience the Emotions

The day brought a mix of sun and cloud along with a variety of emotions. I put aside the major project writing and tried to tackle some of the huge pile of small things that need to be done in the next week. The afternoon brought a great walk out to do errands and head to a meeting and a physio appointment -- a busy afternoon. While at a small memorial garden I had tears when I came across a plaque for a former student who died of domestic violence. The tears caught me unaware. Later I explained a different situation of loss and had tears there, too. The physio appointment helped with relaxation and the walk home felt more positive.

Often we work to hide our emotions from those around us. While there are situations where this is necessary, cloaking all emotions may have negative effects on the individual and those around them. Someone told me once to feel the emotions. A book once noted that we should embrace the emotions, feel them and then move forward. Pushing them deep down inside only risks having them all emerge in an uncontrollable explosion. So, today, I acknowledged the sadness I felt momentarily and continued with the conversations at hand. It takes a form of bravery to allow yourself to do this, but it did feel right.

Hiding emotions from the world is mentioned in the lyrics of the song selection for the day. Also mentioned are feelings of control, power and strength. There is a lot packed into the song. The beautiful melody supports the lyrics well, as does the singer's voice. Enjoy!

Unstoppable -- Sia

Day 6 - 147 -- Awesome Day

I came to find that the word of the day was awesome. When I arrived at the office today, I encountered a couple of colleagues and one used the word awesome repeatedly during our conversation. It sounded a bit sarcastic, which was his way of dealing with a tired Monday. I could feel his pain as I'd had two activities work out and two that didn't earlier in the day. Travel plans took a bit more effort than I'd hoped, but they worked. A book I hoped to purchase wasn't in the bookstore. That means ordering online to deliver to the store -- so not a total washout just a small delay. At the end of the afternoon during a great online practice of a research presentation two colleagues and I are doing next week, the word surfaced again. This time, the tone sounded truly excited. The practice went well and our three parts seem to hang together very well. So, I agree it was awesome.

I find it interesting that a single word can carry so many meaning just by use of inflection. Often that tonal change can make the word take on an opposite meaning. If we shout a happy phrase, some might mean or understand it as anger or frustration instead of happiness. The same holds true for saying something angry or sad with a happy tone. The incongruity can create misunderstanding and confusion. People will feel uncomfortable. I suppose it could be a good way to get the attention of others. Even sarcasm can be mistaken as anger by listeners. So, tone has to be carefully curated to be clear when speaking.

I sang a couple of lines of the song for today when my colleague deliberately said 'awesome' sardonically. It made me smile, but he may not be familiar with the cultural reference, since he looked at me with a slightly puzzled expression. It can be an ear worm and for that I apologize ahead of time. Enjoy!

Everything is Awesome -- Tegan and Sara

Day 6 - 146 -- Future Concepts

Several things were struck off the weekend list today. Besides the ubiquitous laundry, I cooked a chicken dish with a salsa sauce -- very yummy and enough in the freezer for other meals. A blueberry crisp will provide a fruit and cereal dessert for the week, too. Some online searches for items that need to be replaced or repaired took part of the afternoon. The high point was a phone chat with a good friend -- left me with a more relaxed approach to the rest of the day. <smile> The plans for next week have been organized over the days. Many things need to be completed in the coming week and a bit and planning may lead to success.

I find it interesting how the future can be exciting or feared or both at the same time. It can create hope or bring anxiety. Sometimes it seems we focus on the future more than the present, missing where we are at this particular point in time and wishing or dreaming for something different. Those feelings don't always become plans to improve the current situation. Often people may just wish or hope for improvements made by someone else. When something exciting is in the offing, a mix of emotions can arrive. If it is something more concrete -- a trip, a new addition to the family, or a planned event -- we make plans to prepare for that specific happening. Perhaps making plans for the vaguer 'something might happen' feelings can be much more difficult -- causing more anxiety or fear. Hmm.

Lyrics of the selection of the day deal with concept of the future complete with hopes, plans and expectations. It is from a synth-pop style duo, complete with an intriguing introduction to the song itself. Enjoy!

This Used to be the Future -- Pet Shop Boys

Day 6 - 145 -- Giddiness Abounds

An amazing warm sunny day today. I headed out to put gas in the car and get groceries and such. It was lovely outside and inside everyone seemed to be in a good  mood, including me. <smile>. I encountered two situations that made me smile more. While waiting at the customer service desk for a rain check, the fellow in front of me was getting two large mylar balloons -- a very large Hot Wheels one with a large number 3. He also got some paper towels and 3 or 4 bags of chips. I'm sure that will be a fun party. At the bakery (in a convenience store), there were three little boys about 4 or 5 with a man. He was trying to get them out of the store. They'd discovered that the ice cream cone section had opened for the season. They ran and danced since they were so excited -- polite in asking, but excitement could not be concealed. As I left the man had conceded and was now getting them cones before they drove 'back down the hill.' 

Sunshine enables happy feelings. Spring here is filled with greyness and rain -- not bad days, but few glimpses of sun, moon or starts. Today temperatures rose higher than they have been in 2019. That coupled with the bright sun and blue sky seemed to cause giddy behaviour in people of all ages. It gave us hope for warmer days ahead despite the frost warnings in many overnights.

Appropriate lyrics for a day such as this belong to a wonderful song from an iconic band. This version is sung by one of the former band members and another singer-songwriter. Their voices work well together, especially in this acoustic performance. There are two songs in this video; the first is the one chosen for the thoughts of the day. The second song is lovely, too. Enjoy!

Here Comes the Sun (with Homeward Bound) -- Paul Simon and George Harrison

Day 6 - 144 -- Week End

Friday arrived. I made several phone calls to deal (or try to) with some personal things. One seems to be somewhat resolved. I just have to return empty containers and such to the store to have the products replaced. So -- more work for me because quality assurance fell apart at their end. The other call took a lot to make and sadly wasn't returned today. Other people get busy, too, so I'll try again on Monday. So -- neither issue fully dealt with today leaving me with these two things still inhabiting my 'to do' list. <shaking head>. I'll survive -- just not where I'd hoped to be by days end. 

Several other project plans were put together for deadlines and progress next week. I have to do a couple of small items this weekend and then should be set to move things forward next week -- at least the ones within my control.  As for the others, all I can do is to politely ask others to respond to my questions -- or at least to let me know when their schedule will allow a response. So -- I made headway with several items this past week, have plans to continue the forward momentum next week, and need to accept that others may not run on my schedule of needs <smile>.

Today begged for a happy, fun sounding song. The one shared here does fit that bill, while also noting the end of the week. Enjoy!

Friday Night -- Lady Antebellum

Day 6 - 143 -- Traveling day

The day was bright and sunny with more blue sky than I've seen for weeks. It was perfect for a road trip. I headed off to Halifax early in the morning and got home almost 12 hours later. Just getting away felt wonderful. I spent some time at a mall and found a few small items that were on the 'to buy' list. I looked at many others, but didn't find things that fit my criteria. It was wonderful to spend some time wandering around a larger mall with different stores for a change.

We saw something totally new to each of us. A truck behind us had a statement painted across the hood to be visible in a rear view mirror of whoever was in front of the truck. The statement? "Caution. Live eels." As it passed us, the flatbed was filled with plastic square containers that obviously held water -- and said eels presumably. Needless to say that came up again and again in our conversations of the day and our wondering exactly where these creatures were headed.

Several songs ran through my mind during the day. I finally settled on one that seemed appropriate to the events of the day. I love the upbeat lyrics and music -- it sounds like fun is happening for all involved. Enjoy!

On the Road Again -- Willie Nelson

Day 6 - 142 -- Losing Words

The challenge of the day involved finding lost words. Cognitive functioning slowed due to migraine. It took longer to find the words needed and get a concept clear from what someone else was saying. It happens with some headaches. Today I had to resort to playing verbal charades as I tried to find the word needed -- describing the object or person so others could help find the name. That does work in some cases and did help a few time today. Sadly, nouns can't be replaced by other words -- fancy term - circumlocution. For verbs and modifiers having a great vocabulary to begin means there are fewer times where you are just standing there trying to push out a word. Nouns are a whole other story, though. Gladly, most friends and colleagues understand the situation and play along with the game. <smile>

The experience of the day brought to mind a song that was a movie theme from several decades back. It has a slower tempo that almost sounds foreboding. The female singer has the perfect voice for this one. Enjoy!

Charade -- Julie London

Day 6 - 141 -- Revelations

I've realized a couple of things over the past day. Firstly, the work style that I've been forced to adapt over the past couple of decades in academia is very difficult to unlearn. Binge working seems the norm in that setting, but when out of it, I'd like to return to what I had before -- one that was busy, but had time for me to be me. Since retiring, I've felt that something closer to a balance would appear. Well, it isn't going to happen magically. It will take work to achieve. 

Secondly, I was reading last Friday's TGIF newsletter from Brene Brown. One line struck me at the core. "I have a duty/resentment problem that I'm trying to work on and saying no is hard." Well -- I could have written that myself. Brown is an academic, researcher, and practitioner -- I'm that last two at present. I have been working with the resentment that comes from things I think I should or have to do. I'm not sure these projects all must fit the 'have to do' category anymore. I've heard we can be our own worst task-masters, but I thought this might change a bit once retired from teaching and admin work. Yes, research could become a job to fit every waking hour. That is not my goal. I try to go to the office no more than 2 or 3 times a week and rarely am there for a full day. I can do some of the reading and writing from home, too. I do this, but again not everyday that I'm not on campus. I'm striving to find that freedom frrom 'have to do'. It is a struggle. It will alter with time. It already has. I've said 'no' more in the last 6 months than I did in the past many years. So, I am moving in the right direction. I just have to be patient and brave.

The song for today was noted in the newsletter. It was so perfect for what I've been thinking for the past week or two. Interesting. <smile>. The melody is lovely and the singer presents the powerful lyrics well. Enjoy!

Courage -- Pink

Day 6 - 140 -- Hurt

An interesting Monday of a long weekend spent practicing presentations and polishing the phrasing. It was also day 2 of a migraine. I felt very weary even after sitting to do the talking and realized how 'down' I seemed to feel. I decided that I was just very, very tired. Then when I made supper, I realized that my head hurt -- a lot. So the weariness, sad, and exhausted feelings were likely part of that whole migraine package. I'd felt similarly the day before, too. It just takes a while to notice this on my own. Others who have similar episodes or those who know me well can often tell that something is 'off' long before I realize what is happening. One might think that this would be the other way around, don't you think? <sigh>.

I've pledged to pay more attention to what is happening inside me, yet that is very easy to say and less easy to do. Often, when others notice something, if might be something in my facial expression, that I can't see without living in front of a mirror -- a bit of a narcissistic fix that. Migraines don't always come with pain at the onset. I can be overly tired for 2 or 3 days before head pain begins, showing that something neurological is working away before the main symptom happens. I have learned to recognize excessive yawning as a sign. With the additional sleep disruptions of late, feeling tired seems reasonable. Parsing the lack of sleep from the pre-headache fatigue can be difficult. Other symptoms occur often and I've been able to recognize these -- especially when they come in clusters. So, maybe I am recognizing some signs of impending pain, but I'll admit that the reduced cognitive functioning can make such recognition a bit iffy at times. <smile>

A song came to mind that fit the weary-sad-fatigue feeling with the actual head pain. It made me smile, but that might just be the brain malfunctioning <smile>. Enjoy!

Everybody Hurts -- R.E.M.

 

Day 6 - 139 -- Where to Hide?

Sun shone early in the day. I slept longer than has been usual in the past few weeks. I hope that is a sign that normality may return to sleep patterns. By early evening, clouds began to gather, which fits with the forecasts for rain -- over an inch to fall in the next two days. Work on the talks for an upcoming conference occurred in the afternoon, while the evening involved watching a movie series marathon. The latter half of the Harry Potter series is intriguing though much darker than the first movies. More work will follow in the next two weeks, but taking breaks from the writing and speaking projects will be necessary to keep the mind fresh and somewhat productive.

There are time that I feel that I want to hide from everything -- definitely not a doable thing. Demands for decisions can weigh heavily especially when several larger issues arrive in close succession. Just making a decision and moving on to the next seems logical, yet not always easy to do. Carrying around all the anxiety that comes along with the need to make decisions often leads to major fatigue, which, in turn, perpetuates the difficulty in thinking clearly and making the dreaded decision. Often getting past those decisions results in relief but every once in while the decision lead to regret. Even one negative result can add to the angst of decision making. Learning to take care to make the best decision with the information available sounds easy -- not always <smile>. Work is required to get past the fear of or overthinking outcomes. Control isn't always available. Taking risks is part of daily living -- well, risk taking with caution <grin>.

A song lyric that spoke to me today comes from a soul selection. To move past whatever is blocking a decision means we have to understand ourselves. This song involves that very theme. Enjoy!

You Can't Hide from Yourself -- Teddy Pendergrass

Day 6 - 138 -- Brightening the World

Early today I headed out to care for a friend's cats while she is away. They were very happy to see me. <smile>  I then finished the shopping for items that weren't available at two other stores yesterday. Once home, it was the usual laundry and household chores. I watched recorded programs between tasks while checking in on social media. I made some wonderful sweet and sour sauce for the freezer and made meatballs and rice for supper with a great bok choy side.

The weather consisted of mainly clouds with some rain throughout the day. I will admit that my mood matched the weather today. I felt very tired and was ready to go to bed far too early in the evening. I did fall asleep with the television still on around 10:30 PM. I awoke when the phone rang about 11 PM -- not usually a good news time of day. The display showed it was a 'private caller' so I did answer to see if it was someone I knew in need of assistance. It was friends from out west who must have gotten the time difference wrong. I loved chatting with them both. Catching up on personal news is always fun and fulfilling. This couple has checked in with me regularly since my mom passed away three years ago. Tonight, they provided their good wishes for the award I will receive in early June. That meant the world to me. Needless to say, my mood had improved. I past blogs I have mentioned that just when one is feeling a bit low something comes along to brighten the world. This evening call did just that.

A softer sounding song seemed to fit the events of the day. The lyrics present the concept of supporting others perfectly. The use of acoustic guitars dials back the intensity -- again perfectly to fit the lyrics. The two artists performing render the whole package as perfection. Enjoy!

I will be there -- Eric Clapton ft. Ed Sheeran

Day - 6 - 137 -- Seeking Different Viewpoint

The sun and cloud jockeyed for position throughout the day -- somewhat like my plans. A concern shared with a larger organization brought understanding and a chance to help with the problem solving -- turning a less than desired outcome into a coaching situation. Other tasks of the day went almost according to plan with one written document being submitted -- another step forward in that project. Shopping meant running around stores (plural) that had sales yet product was not on the shelves or the sale price simply wasn't available. I will admit that I felt a bit frustrated with this since it means heading to yet another store tomorrow to get the basics needed. I really didn't have the desire or energy to deal with customer service for the lack of sale or product. Another time. I will be able to get what I need at a different sale price at another store so all is not lost <smile>.

Being solution focused can be difficult at times. It is a mindset that demands a positive perspective. While not impossible, there are times when this may not be possible. My goal is to work to identify the challenge as a opportunity rather than an insurmountable hurdle most of the time. With enough rest, this may be possible. Learning to see things from different viewpoints can take time to retrain a brain used to seeing the negative. The end result, though, can be positive. It all takes practice.

The shared song lyric and title fit well with the pondering of the day. Seeing opportunities can strengthen problem solving -- just need to see it. Enjoy!

Missed Opportunity -- Hall and Oates

Day 6 - 136 -- Finding Joy

A major step forward on one writing project occurred today. This is a point we've been working towards and while it is just the beginning, it is something that brings joy. The topic, the writing, the research, the co-author -- it all makes me smile and feel positive. So, reaching this first big step made my day feel wonderful. The afternoon brought a mixture of sun and cloud as I ran a string of errands hoping to avoid getting wet while walking between venues. All were accomplished without encountering any dampness. <smile> 

So many guidelines for happiness recommend that we follow our bliss or do things that bring us joy. While this seems sound advice, it also doesn't recognize that not everything will be filled with joy, even if it is that one thing that brings you happy thoughts. Suggesting that we not accept anything that makes us feel less happy may not be a realistic goal for life. Obviously there is a balance needed. If there is more positive than other feelings, then sticking with it might be reasonable. When there is more unhappy outcomes, then it might be best to take time to rethink. As I've often felt, joy is fleeting and not something that we will feel for great swaths of time. What we do need to do is to learn to recognize it when it arrives and take that moment to experience it.

The song shared represents how I felt when that first big step happened for the writing project. It is a happy sounding song that also points to the way I felt today. Pardon the falsetto <smile>. Enjoy!

You Make Me Feel Like Dancing -- Leo Sayer

Day 6 - 135 -- Travel Music

An early morning found me on the road headed to Halifax for an appointment. Rain fell most of the day -- mainly spitty rain, but a few patches of full on rain along the trip home. It seems odd to travel five hours for a 90 minute visit, but it isn't done often. I hadn't driven to the city for quite a while and there seemed to be a lot more traffic heading into town and back out, even when I avoided the major rush hour times.

One thing kept me going along the trip -- listening to music <smile>. I had an eclectic mix with me and found things I hadn't heard for a while. I find it interesting that some songs are heard more often than others. My portable music doesn't have all full albums, but only parts of some. It was great today to hear the full albums again and 'rediscover' some amazing gems. I sang along with many and would have bopped around a bit if I hadn't been driving -- as a passenger, for sure! Today music helped me through the stress of driving through water, fog and rain.

One song that fit the travel nature of the day is shared here tonight. The energy is fantastic and the singer-songwriter one from my youth and is still going strong. Enjoy!

Rockin' All Over the World -- John Fogerty

Day 6 - 134 -- What is that??

Recent conversations led to misunderstandings due to regional colloquialisms. The first was 'platinum blonde' said in a joking manner to relate to grey-haired people. We used that phrase throughout my childhood and I've used it for years. Until recently, no one has questioned me. This made me realize the different nouns used in various parts of the country for the same item. As a child, I found the words for 'sofa' to be most interesting. We didn't use sofa. A chesterfield sat in our living room. My grandmother had a Winnipeg couch and a davenport -- these seem to fold down differently to form a bed. I wear a pullover hooded sweatshirt -- the term we used when I was a kid.  I've had people say they liked my 'sweater' - a term that always surprises me. In Saskatchewan, these are called 'bunny hugs' presumably due to the big pocket with a left and right opening. In the Maritimes, these are called hoodies. Most seem to be  pull on, but I do have one with a zip front. I'm not sure if that changes the name or not <smile>. 

Using different words shows the variation in language by region. Each area has different cultural makeup, which might lead to such differences. Or, it may just be differences in marketing efforts at the local level. Regardless of why these differences exist, I find them very interesting and not a barrier to conversing.

A song by a band noted by a friend during one of the recent conversations was chosen for the blog today. The title reflects my feeling on the different phrases used locally -- it adds richness so isn't something to create divisions. The band name will speak for itself <smile> -- and a throwback to the '80s hair bands.

Doesn't Really Matter -- Platinum Blonde

Day 6 - 133 -- Sleeping and Counting

For the past several days, I've awoken earlier than the alarm or my expected weekend waking time. It is getting to be a bit ridiculous being up 2-3 hours earlier than desired. Today, I made breakfast and then after being up for 4 hours, I fell asleep listening to the news. Needless to say, the tiredness is creating a less productive situation. At least I have a something to blame <smile>.

While working at the list of things that need to be sent, read, written today, I found myself setting an order for things to occur. Out loud I was counting - one then two then three and so on. At one point, I sang the counting without even thinking about it. Then, I laughed and stated that I now knew what the song for the day would be. It was elementary, if you'll let me use another part of that lyrics. <smile> Enjoy!

NOTE: sorry this is a day late. I fell asleep early last night after getting part of this written. Just one more think on the fun list that didn't get completed. <grin>

1-2-3 -- Len Barry

Day 6 - 132 -- Relaxing Day

Sunday brought more laundry and a visit to care for a friend's two cats. Much time was spent with household accounts. I dislike numbers and often leave this task for two or more months, which only means I spend most of an afternoon organizing and recording things. The day was quiet -- a pleasant sort of quiet. Sunday brings thoughts of family and friends since this was the day of the week we'd have a big family dinner or spend time visiting with others.

Over the past few years, I've often made this a day with less work and more 'me' time. This might be reading, watching a movie, time with a hobby or craft, or just relaxing. While the full day wasn't always available due to things needed for early Monday back at work, I did try to add an hour or two into the day that involved non-work activities. Today, I spent time reading a cooking magazine at my friend's home while attending to the kitties. They sat near me and purred while I made my way through the magazine. At home, I had a bath and read a chapter from a rather large book that I really do want to go on forever. It is the last of a series that I have thoroughly enjoyed.

I selected a song with a simple title to share today. The lyrics are poetic and the sound very relaxing.  Enjoy!

Sunday -- The Cranberries

Day 6 - 131 -- Pondering Sameness

The day felt rather mundane -- just the usual things done for a Saturday. Some edits of written drafts that left a couple of others to do at the beginning of the week. Thinking through a couple of major events next week helped me to get prepared. Of course, the usual household chores called my name -- a lot <smile>, so laundry, floors, and such took my time in the afternoon.

Thinking through this usual type of day did not leave feelings of frustration. Instead, I found myself thinking how nice a regular day could be. While there are deadlines upcoming, today let me work through these thoughts while doing things that did not require heavy brain involvement. Those same tasks also provided a form of physical activity, so I wasn't stuck behind a computer screen. Indoor activities fit well with the damp, cooler day outside, too.

Thinking of a song for today took some work. Many address such days as negatives in life, when it is unlikely that exceptional occurrences will happen every day. I did find one with lyrics that speak to the mundane nature of the day, but uses a major key to sound a bit more 'up'. The first verse fits my thoughts best. The rest spiral into sadness and fairy tale ideas, so know those don't fit any of my thoughts today <smile>. Enjoy!

Another Day -- Paul McCartney

Day 6 - 130 -- Stress Reducers

Multiple tasks were completed today. Each moved a project or plan forward. I attended a seminar after writing and sending many messages in response to issues of the week <smile>. At the end of the work day, I met with a friend to practice one of the upcoming presentations. Timing went well and I received great feedback to improve clarity of some points. After that was completed, we headed out for a glass of wine and light supper -- with lots of conversation. It was a wonderful end to a very full week. Into the evening, I headed out to care for another friend's companion animals. I got a ride up the hill and then walked home. In that 20 minute journey, the rain felt heavier than I'd expected and I was a bit damp when I got back home. Not the end of the world; its just water <smile>.

Ways to relax and reduce stress levels are many. Today held a handful of those. Practicing, socializing and walking in the rain -- each reduced the anxiety levels of the past few days. Several different song lines came to me on that rainy walk home. I settled on one song from over 50 years ago. The first two lines fit my walk the best. Rain seems to be the common metaphor for sadness -- and that is not what I felt today. The singers voice is wonderful. Enjoy!

Walking in the Rain -- Johnnie Ray

Day 6 - 129 -- Marking Passage of Time

Today ended with one piece of a larger project completed and ready to submit by the deadline. This made me smile. Several other smaller bits were tackled today along with several e-mail responses that were almost overdue. Overall, the day went well. I have a couple items to complete tonight before bed so that I'm prepared for the tasks of tomorrow.

The singer-songwriter that first appeared in this blog turns 70 today. So many songs exist that choosing one could be challenging. Yet, as I went through a lengthy list, I found one that could fit the day and what his career means to many of us. He plays the instrument that I learned as a child. Only a handful of recording artists in the rock era have used this instrument. Lyrics of the chosen song present the need to take notice of the events and moments as they pass by us. Enjoy!

This the Time -- Billy Joel

Day 6 - 128 -- Unearthing Courage

A few items on the 'to do' list for today were completed. A larger undertaking involved conversations with two people to help me find a way through the trepidation. This task -- a biggie -- needs attention in the next couple of weeks. I feel a bit more prepared to negotiate my way through to a finish after the help from two friends. Further work on work projects moved things forward a bit today, which brought a smile. 

I did a lot of walking with songs in my ears today. That helped with the tension and brought several smiles. By the time I headed out for a walk in late afternoon, the sun had been replaced by cloud. Temperatures were similar, though, due to a strong cooler breeze. I'm not close to putting away the fleece for the season yet <smile>.  Having the courage to do something that I say I hate is a challenge, even when it is likely that feeling comes from major discomfort with the process. Finding an assistant or two to provide pointers and advice can really help quell the fear and find the courage. 

One song played in my head today as I reflected on the steps in front of me. I like this more unplugged -- less produced -- version of the song. Enjoy! 

Brave -- Sara Bareilles

Day 6 - 127 -- Busy, Busy, Busy

This warmer, sunny day contained some unexpected events in the midst of the planned activities. I paid a bill that was much less than I'd expected -- a good thing <smile>. A planned lunch meeting was delightful. Buried deep in the e-mail inbox was an invitation to dinner tonight -- another unexpected surprise. During the afternoon, I worked to get through the e-mail and the 'to do' list. There was much to do -- mainly short smaller tasks, but there were a great many of these. 

I found myself rushing around for much of the day -- trying to get all those little things completed. As I ran back and forth, things seemed to get off track, which required them to be repeated -- a rather counterproductive process <smile>. The day's list was completed and I walked home. Dinner out with friends was lovely. One is leaving for the summer, so it was nice to meet for a farewell meal. 

I'm hoping that the business of the day can be an aberration rather than a norm, since there are many meetings, appointments and deadlines for the month of May. While pondering this and the need to repeat a task this afternoon, a line from a song ran through my mind. I heard the title and chorus lyric line with a changed word -- I hear 'busy' instead of 'hurry' so - 'I'm too busy to get things done' came out <smile>. Enjoy! 

I'm in a Hurry (and don't know why) -- Florida Georgia Line ft. Alabama

 

Day 6 - 126 -- Buds and Blooms

After a meeting and an appointment -- both fairly productive -- I went for a walk in the sunshine that finally emerged today. The trees are in bud as are the shrubbery. There will be leaves and some more forsythia soon. On main street one of the larger white magnolias in town is in full bloom. This tree faces southeast and is in a corner of a brick building. This location provides extra warmth, so this one is often the first to emerge. The pink ones on the my block will follow soon. I'll have to take a walk around campus this week to see how the trees and plants are doing.

The air felt pleasant today -- some cooler breeze but wonderful warmth of the sun. I enjoyed the walk. The longer day yesterday has left me a bit tired today, though. So -- a lullaby-like selection seemed appropriate. The poetic lyrics present images of spring. The singer has a wonderful vocal style for this folk style. Enjoy!

The Lullaby of Spring -- Donavon

Day 6 - 125 -- New Hope

The day began early while I assisted with organizing students for the procession into convocation. It is always fun to see them before the event -- so much smiling despite the early hour. The ceremony contained some amazing speeches -- short, inspiring and very well worded. The class speaker and the honorarily doctorate recipient each touched on a similar topic -- that of changing the world. Challenges to find the passion in work that will improve conditions in this world for a more sustainable future came from the speakers. The messages were designed to engage listeners and get them thinking.

I enjoy convocation day. It contains so much hope as hundreds of new careers are poised to take off. Celebrations include the ceremonies, luncheons, receptions, and time with friends and family. Tonight, the graduates will gather for one last evening together before they head their different ways. I look forward to hearing their news over the next years. It can be difficult not to feel proprietary -- 'our students'. Perhaps there is a bit of pride in the small contributions we have made to their development. When I think about it, they have played a major role in my growth over their years here, so maybe it isn't too selfish to feel that I played some role in their lives, too.

When listening to the speakers this morning, I did hear the chorus of a song in my head. As the day progressed, the song remained, thus, I'm sharing it with you. The lyrics contains much hope and caring for the world around us. Enjoy!

Heal the World -- Michael Jackson

Day 6 - 124 -- Candlelit evening

After a mundane day around the house, I headed up to campus for the farewell for students who graduate tomorrow. The evening was cool with drizzle -- much as the whole day had been. I wore an extra layer under my academic gown to keep me warm while lining up outside. The ceremony was filled with short speeches and the traditional events of the presentation of academic hoods and filling the time capsule for this graduating class. This year there were several serious additions such as a teal ribbon for the 'me too' movement along with a hope that when the capsule was reopened, that sexual assault on campus would be in the past. They also paid homage to the former foodservice director who passed away, by placing a snack and sign from the 'snack corner' began in his honour.

Upon leaving the chapel, students formed an honour guard with their lit candles, through which the admin and faculty walked. We then formed a procession headed up the hill to the reception. We were the first to walk on the new switch-back style ramps up the hill -- making it much more accessible than the numerous stairs that had been in previously. When I got to the top of the hill, I looked down to see the zigzag of students and candles moving up the ramps. It was gorgeous. I will admit to thinking of what it might look like with light sabres -- it was Star Wars day after all (May the 4th be with you <grin>).

Given my odd meanderings into sci-fi territory this evening, an odd song selection came to mind. It is based on one of my favourite Star Wars quotes -- from Yoda -- "Do or do not; there is no try." <grin> Enjoy!

Try (just a little bit harder) -- Janis Joplin and Kosmic Blues Band

Day 6 - 123 -- Ups and Downs

Today brought mixed feelings.  I spent time doing work on an upcoming presentation. Things are beginning to shape up for the slides and content. Another one is in progress, so much practice will occur over the next couple of weeks. The sun was wonderful and made the day feel warmer than it had been for some time. I enjoyed sitting on the porch to do some work that needed to be outdoors. It was very pleasant.  The vehicle issues were partly fixed -- leaving it safe to drive but without features that I rarely use except in the winter. Will see how things go. <sigh>

Unpleasant news can be difficult to accept. Being able to temper it with positive messages or experiences should help, but it just isn't that easy. It takes time to work through things to find a way to come to terms with some pieces of news. Visions of the future may need to be altered. Some news may be time sensitive, which only adds pressure to the anxiety of such news. Such events happen often, yet I'm not sure the practice makes perfect in this case <smile>.

The song shared today addresses giving and receiving positive and negative pieces of news. The main topic is very different from my news today, but I found the juxtaposition of the two stories intriguing. the use of minor chords provide a strong sense of melancholy. Enjoy!

Good News, Bad News -- George Strait and Lee Ann Womack

Day 6 - 122 -- Another Unexpected Occurrence

For the past two days, it has been sunny but cool. Walking in the sunshine has been a positive activity. While walking I realized how many different things have been part of my thoughts recently. Even if hidden at times, these form a weight that adds to the fatigue and solitary behaviour. While I felt more 'up' than has been experienced in the past few weeks, there was still something hanging out behind me just waiting to drop that other shoe. I'm hoping that the newish event today wasn't that shoe.

The car went in for a brake job today and to check out why the ABS had engaged for no reason two weeks ago. I picked it up early afternoon and almost didn't get home. At a 3-way stop, it almost stalled as I tried to move it forward and out of traffic if it did coast to a stop. As the gas pedal reengaged and the car moved forward, a warning bell sounded and four icons lit up on the dash -- ESP, traction control, 4WD and ABS. I did not feel safe trying to drive it back to the dealership, so I called to say things were now more involved than two weeks ago. A head mechanic and the service manager drove down to pick it up and get it back to the garage. Tomorrow will tell us if there is something specific that can be found, or if it needs someone to unhook the wiring connection by connection to see if problems are found -- could be hours of work. I'm not prepared to deal with that.

A song lyric came to mind. It describes something I hope I don't need to deal with the current vehicle difficulty. Enjoy!

Diamonds on the Soles of her Shoes -- Paul Simon

Day 6 - 121 -- Indigenous Languages

I heard a song by a local indigenous teen -- well a couple hours away 'local' <smile>. She recorded the song to celebrate the UN International Year of Indigenous Languages. She is proud of her native language and finds it beautiful. She's correct. The words were translated as best as possible, though words alone didn't translate well, so concepts became the focus. The original song was written during the civil rights movement in the US -- also concepts that still resonate today.

The singer did an acoustic cover of this song by an iconic singer-songwriter. Her voice is amazing and so well suited to this song. The lyrics are available in the enclosed link for people who speak and read the language or are learning it. Enjoy!

Blackbird -- Emma Stevens (sung in the Mi'kmaq language)