Day 3 - 242 -- Gaining Perspective

The day has been one of challenges -- challenges to see me in a different light. I've been a bit on edge for a few days with little sleep only adding to the situation. I tried to make a new key for the house and had it cut twice but it just didn't work. I thought the neighbours would think I'd lost my mind as I pulled in and out of the drive every 10 minutes to get the key that worked and to try two new keys in two other trips. I was surprised that I didn't feel angry when I returned the second one despite paying parking meter fees that were half the cost of the key <smile>. I was very tired, but there was something that made me realize that they'd done what they could with the blanks they had. So, I moved on to the next thing -- getting my back readjusted at the physio. It will likely be sorer tomorrow than today, but that is the general way this process goes. Another situation developed in the evening. While semi-panicked for my own situation, I remained calm and felt the compassion needed for another. There was no malice intended there -- quite the opposite. After a chat with another person, I was able to see some of the absurdities of my situation and see it as what my mother called "an adventure." Some activities will be scary moving forward, but I've worked through similar things and managed well. This time will be no different. I just have to remember to breathe. <smile>

Panic can be quite intriguing when looking at its backside slinking away. Things can seem so small in retrospect, yet had some supreme power earlier. Perspective is fascinating. Taking one of those inner battles outside oneself can take away its power. Confront it head on and stare it down and its strength drains away as yours increases. There are still physiological effects that last a while -- adrenaline will do that. I'm hoping the sleep tonight will prove semi-restorative and a quiet day tomorrow will help things work well in the following days.

When thinking of seeing things through different eyes, I thought of a song from an animated movie. We all need to learn to paint with all the colours of the wind. Enjoy!

Colors of the Wind -- Vanessa Williams