Today, I worked on plans for the next few days, which took longer than I'd expected. Feelings were overwhelmingly anxious and vulnerable. Days like this happen, but can be triggered by grief -- even when one thinks it should be over, it raises its head again. . Such days occur less often and with less intensity -- today, though, was a bigger battle. Facing the feeling takes courage, something difficult to muster some days. I got several things completed and others underway -- even managed a laugh a few times. <smile>
A good friend once said that during grief one needs to be kind to oneself. Kindness is often discussed in terms of others, while rarely turned inward. Perhaps it is seen as selfish to pay attention to oneself. It shouldn't be. How can we expect to be the best person we can be if we don't care for ourselves? It makes sense that to be kind to others, we have to be in a good place. It is challenging to do this, but I'm trying in several ways. I can't say that I succeed every day, but I keep trying and attempt to learn from the less successful moments. That may be the key, focusing on moments rather than the whole day or week or life <smile>. Again, challenging.
A song that brings some of these thoughts to its lyrics is the selection for today. It was an official song for the 1996 Olympics. I love the encouraging nature of the lyrics and the gorgeous voice to let them fly. Enjoy!
Reach -- Gloria Estefan
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