Sleep. For the last 2 -- almost 3 actually -- weeks, sleep has been disrupted. Waking up freezing due to sweat soaked pjs, is far from pleasant. The last two nights have been outright silly. I woke so many times, I lost count. Now, not always fully awake, but surfacing enough to know I'm awake and fidgeting to find a comfy position to get back to sleep. Over and over and over. Yes, the ObGyn had told me the average for this behaviour was 3 years. That was 8 or so years ago. So, looks like night sweats are with me for the duration. Summer weather makes these more prominent. But the wakefulness and thus, lack of REM sleep is unbearable. I'm walking in a fog and trying to function well enough to make decisions that affect the lives of others. It isn't easy with inadequate rest. I've had one solid night's sleep in the last almost 3 weeks. Reading research in this area can be disturbing in itself. While it was a small sample size, one study noted that sleep studies with women showed they 'surfaced' on average once every 8 minutes. EIGHT minutes. As an average, that means some woke less often but some actually woke more often. Really? No wonder I wander around looking for lost words feeling like I should just sit down and rest. <sigh> I've often said I swear it is less than 15 minutes between waking episodes, so knowing others have experienced this helps a bit -- a very small bit.
Lyrics from a song suit my feelings and thoughts today. The disconnect between understanding an issue and laying blame for the issue seemed a bit disturbing at times today -- little desire to look inward for that understanding. The forced multiple intermissions with sleep has left my brain semi-functional at best. The lyrics mention the hot and cold issue, being obsessed with everybody else, and difficulties with communication that occur with fatigue. See why I thought it was perfect for today? <smile>. Enjoy!
Disconnected -- Pink
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