I planned to try to get into the large project this morning. Several urgent smaller things needed doing by just after lunch. Moving cupboard contents to another room so renos can begin in the original space. Trundled things down the hall to a second room and will need to move them back to the new cupboards in a week or so. Several other little things needed some attention. At abut 2:30 PM I put in the ear buds, took a deep breath and opened a file cabinet drawer. The file culling began shortly thereafter. It wasn't entirely easy. These are not the most current files, so it wasn't clear what I might encounter. I did make some room by the time I left about 5 PM. There was emotion, as I found materials from past projects -- things that I was involved in that were exciting and fun. Many papers are no longer current, so these were sorted from the more useful documents.
Journeys down memory lane can be pleasant, but can also bring myriad emotions. Recalling past meetings, coworkers, and accomplishments can bring joy as well as a degree of sadness. That nostalgia thing -- wistfulness, perhaps. So, I had been worried about the emotional aspect of this task, and it was there. It will happen again and again as I sort through decades of past team work. Music helped me to work through the first few files. I took a short stack to sort, took a break and then tackled the next stack. While that sounds so logical, when anxious about what one might encounter, logic is not fully present <smile>. Remembering to breath and to accept and name the emotions might help future sojourns into the paper piles. It remains to be seen.
Lyrics that present anxiety and self affirmations that I encountered today are shared here tonight. This piece is by an indigenous artist from Ottawa who says his songs are inspired by positive messages, storytelling and life experiences. (the lyrics can be found in a link in the description below the video). Enjoy!
Can You Hear me Now -- Cody Coyote
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