Day 5 - 213 -- Facing Change

The sun was brutal today -- so strong, unrelenting and HOT. It was 31C at 6 PM. It was a bit drier than last week, but that won't last with the rain expected tomorrow. So, August (how did that happen so quickly?) weather seems fully entrenched.

Worked away in the office organizing things to go into boxes. That seems to be a stumbling point. It makes it real and final. It took some time to figure this out. Tomorrow we will tackle that beast head on and just do it. I feel that not starting this part of the journey will only add to the moments of anxiety and panic that present themselves -- and with greater frequency of late. I've written about change many times in this blog. As I've said before, change is the only constant. It is with us every moment of every day. Some days we are able to cope better than others, yet some changes present greater needs for high level coping skills. Major life changes such as a new job, loss of a loved one, unexpected illness or injury, moving house, or retirement bring with them large disruptions to one's status quo. So, I shouldn't be surprised that my changing circumstances have created negative stress. At times like this, I am especially glad that I have this blog to turn to as I work through the many layers and components of the anxiety of change.

I heard lines from a song this morning that seemed to explain some of the aspects of the stress encountered. "Take your best shot. It might be scary." That is where I'm headed today and tomorrow -- one step at a time as I work through the positive and the less positive parts of a major life change. The singer of the song is a Canadian who will turn 20 next week. Enjoy!

Life of the Party -- Shawn Mendes