It was a quiet day at home getting caught up on correspondence. There is still so much on the 'to do' list -- nothing huge, just several small things that take 30 minute max to do. I managed to make a more balanced supper than the past two nights after feeling invigorated by a chat with a good friend late in the afternoon.
There is a need to work on productivity -- again, nothing huge, but things that should be completed. Feeling world weary and getting less sleep than usual likely affect the lack of impetus to get to waiting tasks. Over the past 10 months, I've often read that 'adulting' can be challenging. The urge to throw a tantrum and refuse to do my assigned chores lies just below the surface some days. If I sit with a book or a movie for the day, why should I feel badly that the floor wasn't swept. At times I feel so frustrated and in need of understanding -- a vaguely familiar feeling from the dim distant past -- I want to run away from home. No idea now where I'd go, but years back there was a person and place where I would have started -- my grandmother. At this point in life, it is clear that escape may not bring the answers or respite desired. Searching for the answer to the lassitude will take time, but I feel it will be found.
The song that came to mind reminded me of home -- running to rather than from. Heading to a former home isn't part of the search plans, but the song made me smile today. Stay safe. Enjoy!
Runnin' Back to Saskatoon -- The Guess Who
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