Feeling lost today led me to making another list <smile> -- one of all things that need to be done this Fall from a research standpoint. The hope is that this might help me to find a starting place and just move forward. I have a year to do a lot with the ability to reapply for a second year. Doing this forever is not in the plans <smile>.
All the things on the list seem to be swirling around my head, without me able to catch hold of one to start the work process. That visual reminded me of a Chinese proverb.
That the birds of worry and care
Fly about your head,
This you cannot change,
But that they build nests in your hair,
This you can prevent.
If only it were that simple <smile>. Is it that tackling one of these tasks -- things I've always termed the fun stuff -- gives a tangible form to the change in my daily routine? Does it feel like there are too many things to complete in a year without it being another full time job? Each of those questions needs to be addressed, but the work needs to begin soon. The other fun things at home should begin, too. How to find that balance? Hmm There is much to ponder and work out to design the new normal.
A song came to mind that contains some beautiful lyrics along with a lovely melody from a gorgeous voice. I found the line "turning them on still causes pain" particularly telling today. I love the piano in this one. Enjoy!
Bluebird -- Sara Bareilles
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