Day 5 -- 255 -- It All Went Sideways

The sun that meteorologists promised today didn't really appear. Cloud remained dark and grey. In my windowless office, I could be unaware of this until I stepped out into the hallway. Several items moved forward on the desk, but the key writing piece still sits in pieces. It has to come together soon as the due date approaches quickly. The physio helped with my neck a bit -- still very sore, but I'm hoping it improves tomorrow. I ran a couple errands early in the day and then two others late in the afternoon. One involved trying on a pair of runners with my usual socks to ensure they fit well. I walked into the store and back to the show section. They had one pair that was my size, so I took it to the chairs, put them on and walked around. Now, no one has come to ask if I need help or just to say 'hi' yet. I put them back into the box and walked over to check the other box in a smaller size to see if the usual booklet explaining the features of the shoe was present. Nope. Neither box nor the display shoe had such an item, yet they leave the factory with this based on all the others I've purchased of this brand. A sales person did ask if I needed anything as I was rooting through boxes for the tags. I noted that I would likely purchase the shoes, but wanted to read the information booklet. She shrugged and walked away. As I walked to the register another woman with merchandise in her hands looked at me quizzically but walked past me supposedly to return said items to the racks. No one was at the register. I stood there for some time. Nothing. Two women behind me were heading towards the checkout to form a line behind me. I turned and asked if they knew if anyone was available to take our payments. I finally asked if they thought there was anyone who would put my name on the box so I could go away and return when I might be able to pay for them. I started to walk away and then stopped to apologize to the two women behind me. I must have looked bad as one came and gave me a hug saying she didn't know me but thought I needed a hug. She was right. That helped me recentre and wait.

When deconstructing this crazy episode, I discovered that it was likely that I was hungry. I have been known to be 'hangry' (I so dislike made up words, but this one is spot on). That along with my neck feeling sorer after a treatment likely put me into an uncomfortable place without being fully aware of the cause of the effect. Not a good deportment in public. Those behind me in line were kind and understanding. How lucky am I? I know I felt confused as to the source of the outburst when the day had gone along fairly well. Physical causes hadn't crossed my mind at that point, but when I took time to check in with myself, it was clear that my stomach had been growling for some time and that my neck was feeling worse than earlier (a common aspect of a treatment to improve it). Remembering to breathe and recentre can be challenging it seems.

 Lyrics and title of a song fit the situation of the shoe shopping adventure. The song has a relaxing tone to it and lyrics highlight that it isn't the end of the world. Enjoy!

Everything's Not Lost --  Coldplay