The day started with sunshine but cloud built up by afternoon. I did a quick trip to the grocery store for a few items that I needed now. The rest of the day involved the ubiquitous laundry and some serious avoidance behaviour for other tasks that should be addressed soon. Some days this is worse than others. This inertia relates in some way with anxiety, which also results in fatigue, forgetfulness and fear -- the three dreaded F's <smile>.
On an up note, two acquaintances contacted me today -- communications that helped me feel connected and supported. Isolation has become the norm over the past two years, yet that does not mean that we are alone. We are still connected with that wonderful fabric of friends, family and community. I am so lucky. I recall thinking that moving to a small town might bring too many challenges -- like everyone knowing everything about me. <grin> Over the years, I've learned that there are more positives than challenges. Yes, shopping can be challenging especially for clothing and furniture and such. But, I know that if I am out of the house, there are people everywhere that I know who can -- and often have -- helped me when I've needed it. People have helped me when I have needed to get to Emergency, go down the highway for a physician appointment, check in with me when life has gone sideways, supported me through vehicular accidents and so many smaller helps that I couldn't begin to list them all. When I've asked for help, I'm always surprised that people say 'yes'. Asking for help is difficult and I often expect that it is too much of an imposition. I was asked once what I would do if a student, friend or acquaintance asked me for the type of help I needed. My response what that I would help without hesitation. Their summary statement was a question, "Then why would you expect that others would have a different response?" Hmmm. Perhaps when feeling strong most of the time, being in need of help feels like a weakness. Even typing that made me shake my head. Asking for help is a strength -- I've told people that many times. So, why don't I take my own advice? We just don't do that very well, it seems. <smile>
A couple of songs came to mind, but I settled on the one that explains the reciprocal concept of social support. We help each other so the help goes both ways. I know I've used this one before, but the lyrics really spoke to me again today. Stay safe. Enjoy!
Count on Me -- Bruno Mars
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