Humidity and drizzle filled the day. I felt the same as the weather -- a bit gloomy, though I worked to find moments for smiles or laughter. Meetings with students and colleagues along with a lecture went fairly well. The lecture could have been stronger, but my focus seemed a bit off in places. I woke at 4:45 AM today and as I was drifting off again at 6 AM, the phone rang with an undisclosed number showing on the screen. I was a bit abrupt once someone keyed in and then asked for Mrs. me. It seemed to be a phishing style call. I noted it was the middle of the night (still dark outside the window) and was informed by the man on the other end, "No, it is 6 in the morning." I waited to ensure it wasn't some emergency call and hung up once he had disconnected. So -- with little sleep, focus in the office was a challenge.
A few items helped me get out of the sameness of revolving door meetings. A friend and I walked out to the sod turning for the newest building complex in the centre of campus. A former prime minister, major donors, and upper management were present for the photo op. Given the rain, it was a small crowd, but fun to see this piece of campus history. By the end of the day, I found the doldrums had settled back with me. I cooked supper with some great local corn on the cob -- always a fun food. That made me smile. I'd received a package at the door just as I was heading out this morning, so I opened this after supper. It made me cry -- happy tears. At some point in the past few months, I'd noted with an organization on my regular donation list that they had been added to my will. This group sent a lovely letter noting how much they appreciated this -- all without any idea what my estate might involve <smile>. As a thank you, they included an amazing book with gorgeous photos and a story of the organization told by the woman who inspired it. It was a signed copy. Wow! I was a bit overwhelmed that a simple addition to my will would trigger such a generous response. This gesture gave me some focus on the positives in my life. As I was working into the evening, the doorbell rang for the second time in a single day -- almost unheard of <smile>. A friend dropped off a bag of homemade items for my birthday last week -- two beautiful knitted dish cloths and a gorgeous, deep red crabapple jelly. Looking at it makes me want to cook toast right now to try it <grin>. So -- it seems if I just hang in, things do get better.
While there are days when the world seems so intense that hope can get lost in the turmoil around and within me, today showed that hope is always within reach. The song for today deals with the need for hope and supports a women's mental health initiative. The up tempo beat and lyrics bring a form of energy. The visuals are inspiring words and phrases from women dealing with mental health issues. It made me smile today, too. <smile> Enjoy!
Hope -- Natasha Bedingfield
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