Day 3 - 90 -- Sunshine and Absence

Bright sunshine greeted me this morning. It was so bright that even with sunglasses, it was nearly blinding while walking. That isn't a complaint. I just need to carry my ball cap with me so that I can hide under the brim a bit better <smile>. The kitchen had super sunshine with the furry fellow enjoying sunning himself. It makes the golden undertones in his fur pattern pop and makes him a golden boy <smile>.  In the office, I didn't turn on the lights until after lunch when the sun had moved to the other building wing. It was great to see the sun after the snow of yesterday.  Tomorrow is to be cloudy with sun leading us into a couple days of rain. So, I enjoyed this sun even more knowing we'd have a few days with less of it.

Reflecting on the presence of sunshine today and its absence on other days made me think of my mental state. Some days are better than others and some times of day are better than other times of day. I keep catching myself thinking that an experience needs to be shared with my Mom. I always kept a mental list of  things that I'd share when we chatted. This decades-old habit will take some time to alter. I know that I still find myself wishing I could just call Dad to ask him a question, but don't catch myself thinking that I need to tell him things as I did. He's been gone 11 years, and I'm not sure when that change in thinking occurred. It did take a long time, though. Now, I'm feeling sad or teary at times when I realize that I don't need to keep that list any longer. Finding another recipient of some of these daily events will be more difficult and may actually turn out to be several people. This is how I've dealt with many of the Dad questions, while others remain unanswered.

The song for today contains lyrics that highlight the positive nature of the sun as well as the transitions of life. The version shared here is from 50 years ago, when this renowned singer was but a teenager <smile>.  Enjoy!

A Place in the  Sun -- Stevie Wonder